Random Thoughts

Riding on a stormy weather, Hoping and praying that it never gets better, How the heck am I supposed to express my pain, I only see it written well in the drops of the rain. People looking up to the skies trying to find the sun, Wishing it breaks through the clouds so they can have some fun, But there's no reason to smile, when the only one, That could ever make me laugh is forever gone. The rainbows have no colour, The flowers all grey, Music sounds just like death, And food tastes like hay, Mondays are all better because of the grind, I throw myself into work, It takes you off my mind. But no matter how I run, Even jump out a window, You follow me all around, Like a living shadow. So I till I find some peace riding the stormy weather, I'll hope and pray that it never gets better. 

Cast me a line, For I have sailed too far, A wolf separated from the pack, Alone and without guidance, My compass rendered useless by a fall, The cloud has covered the stars, I cannot rely on nature for navigation. Cast me a line, For I am drowning, The salty water rushes into my mouth, My lungs burn with the lack of air, Ay eyes go glassy, As my blood ceases to flow, The seagulls float above my head, Knowing my end is near. Cast me a line, For I am lost in my lies, Tangled in the nest of my deception, Dragged deeper into the mire, Soon to become one with the mud, Soon to cease existing at all.

I turned on the news this morning and the reports were the same. "North Korea fires missiles" "Nanny beheads child" "Sex scandals in the Catholic church" "Migrants and authorities clash at the border" *sigh* In a world so filled with violence and misery, I live for glimpses of happiness. Little rays of sunshine that brighten up my day. Sometimes it's hearing from an old friend, getting a compliment, helping a stranger. Today, it was seeing a mother swing her child in the air. She never noticed me, sitting on the bench in the background, basking in her joy, absorbing her laughter, hearing her son giggle. A short moment in her day, a glimpse of happiness in mine.