Goodbye My Love

So many words left unwritten,
So many letters left unsent,
So many voice notes deleted,
So many blog posts unpublished,
Always archived.

So many times I wavered,
Wanting to call,
Never pushing the button,
Wanting to please my heart,
Needing to please Jehovah.


Hwaiting! Saranghaeyo...now and forever.

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